A new blog, a new me! (hopefully haha)

NOTE: DON'T CLICK on ANY link that i'll discuss here... (except those of facebook.com)

i just had to make a note of it.

AGAIN DON'T CLICK ANY LINK EXCEPT THE FACEBOOK LINKS!!!

just now i received a message from someone, and it was suspicious actually, but this certain one used bit.ly, which is a known url shortener which is used by some of my friends...
so i somewhat trusted it and clicked it... woah.

this message i received from a friend turns out to be pre-generated. i talked with him and he said that he didn't send that msg, and as he checks in the sent part of his messages it was sent to all of his friends automatically. he doesn't know how it happened.

the message has no subject, and the body is:
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youtube
http://bit.ly/dbSmgq
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the more detailed stuff ahead:


when i go there it just loads as long as usual so i got scared and stopped it.

as it loads i noticed it goes to the following sites:

http://84.108.78.215/d=www.piratedb.net/0x3E8/view/console=yes/?go#

well it loads nothing, it just keeps loading and loading.
BUT when i tried replacing "no" instead of "yes" on the address, it goes to this page with a title "Yuo Tube etxetera i forgot" (and YES it is spelled YUO tube so it makes it uber suspicious)

and as it loads it has the same format as facebook video page, where there is a video rectangle in the center, and then comments underneath which is not true because the links of the usernames all have the same link, which is with piratedb dot something...
it's this:
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Video Responses: 10 Text Comments: 70


babachat (4 hours ago)
Funniest thing EVER!!

csmith1199 (6 hours ago)
WooHoo!! Love this vid!!! Congrats on the front page!!!! :-)

sinmike1 (7 hours ago)
that.... was .......GREAT !!!

ah17 (10 hours ago)
Nice vid :)
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and each "username" has this link:
http://84.108.78.215/d=www.piratedb.net/0x3E8/view/console=no/?go# (i guess it shows "no" because of when i changed the "yes" to "no" i guess...)

but i took note of the virus that my virus detector said, it's:
(this is a line from the program itself: "contains recognition pattern of HTML/FraudL,b,16546 HTML script virus"
AND
"C:\ ....... is the TR/Dropper.Gen Trojan and there is this
"opening setup.exe" that pops up like that when you download a file.. but i didn't download any.

i'm not too techie or something like that to know what to do, but just don't click on it anymore... just to be safe.

i hope this gets resolved.... or something. i already reported it to facebook. and this is the link in case you have others you want to report:
http://www.facebook.com/help/contact.php?show_form=report_phishing

for help when you've already clicked on it:
http://www.facebook.com/help/?page=1009

so right now what i'm doing is downloading antivirus, spyware scanner or something. hope nothing bad happens to my laptop or my accounts....

xxx


you may think that i don't like you



that i don't like you enough to even talk to you



but that's the thing...............



i do like you so much



so much that i can't bring myself to even come talk to you...



this may be childish



i know it is... it is.



i don't want to assume



but it looks like you have someone already...



it's okay, be happy.



i'll just move over...



the more reason why i don't talk to you.



(too much EMO!!!) : ) haha

i have loved facebook... the applications, the notifications system and chat and all else.. (including the privacy settings...) it's like an easier and more interactive friendster... due to this i haven't touched my friendster and multiply account for the longest time. up until now. sorry about that.
the only thing that somehow wants me to close the window and go to another site is when i see "XXX is single" or "YYY is in a relationship" on the home page.

either of the two gives me this feeling of... i don't know. jealousy maybe? but the feeling is more intense on the latter. i'm just immersing myself to this feeling so i can then identify it, and when i do i'll be able to detach myself from it. just like what i've did before. like in the book "tuesdays with morrie": you have to let yourself feel it, so the next time you'd recognize it and you'd identify what it is and detach yourself from it. you let it touch you, experience it, cry a little and then you will be able to detach yourself.

being single for 2 years has been a struggle also. it's actually somewhat the same as being in a relationship. it's like (the idea of - in my case) going to another country: you have no idea what's to happen, and you have that anxiety in you. the difference is you go through it alone.

so right now i'll just let it consume me. it's about time i immerse myself on to this feeling so i'd know what it is and be able to deal with it.

(just to clarify: this one is different. i already know the feeling of being single. what i'm trying to know now are those feelings when i see those "...now single" and "...in a relationship" phrases.)

i have an idea, a vague explanation, feeling, term, whatever of what it is. but what is it exactly? i still have to feel it to know completely...

there was this koreanovela that i loved watching. i liked that certain soap. and just a few moments ago i watched it again. on dvd.
okay fine, usually when i make a post i filter most of it. i don't mention things, titles, sexes. tonight i'll just let it all out. i need to post this just to let it out.
it's coffee prince. i loved watching that tv soap before... and what has captivated me to watch it is because there was a gender issue that was injected to it. yes, about the gayness thing. i'm gay. so what?
so today i watched it again. actually it wasn't watching, it was part skimming and part watching. i was skipping some of the scenes that weren't that interesting to me.
yeah, i went to tears on those times when she was ignored by the guy, or when she felt tortured because of what the guy was doing. okay okay, kill me. i'm a sucker for those kinds of scenes.
but what made me turn the dvd off was the part when they were talking on cellphone, the day when the guy finally gave in and said somewhere the lines of "whether you're a man or an alien let's go as far as it goes". when they were about to sleep and they called each other to have some chat before turning in to sleep.
that warm feeling. i felt it again that familiar feeling. a little less than 2 years ago i was doing that. 30 minutes before sleeping i would go out of the house, out of the gate and sit on the sidewalk of the house next to us. i can't do that in the house because my parents would kill me, and i can't in my bedroom because the signal was terrible in the bedroom. that's already on globe, what more for sun right? haha sun. the network for lovers.
i even remember one time as i was stuck in conversation a dog peed on me. i don't know. perhaps the dog thought i was a big rock or something for sitting outside more than 30 minutes?
i would switch the sim to sun, then call a certain number. i would just sit there on the sidewalk and talk and talk and talk.
i missed that. i miss caring for someone. i miss being cared by someone. i miss hearing "i miss you already" even though you just parted ways 4 or 5 hours ago. i miss being question on what i've been doing outside for more than 30 minutes. i miss hearing the word 'baby' more than 3 times in a minute. i miss looking at the stars while saying how i feel. i miss sitting on that sidewalk and feel so blessed and not a care in the world as to what other people might think i'm doing there. i miss feeling appreciated. i miss feeling loved. i miss being loved.
i miss that feeling of having something, something that is yours. even if it's not legal.
yeah, gay lovers are not that accepted yet, the reason why i go out of the house to make those phone calls. and it was also the reason that i was able to enjoy talks on the phone while sitting on the sidewalk, looking at the stars while saying what i feel, what i've been doing, what i am to do next...
december 19 is going to be my 2nd year of being single. yeah, when is he going to be here? when will i get to know him? if ever he's someone that i already know, when will i realize that it's him?
i'm not in love with the idea of being in love. i just want to feel appreciated and loved again after a long time. most of the times i don't feel that, and i hate the feeling of not feeling that.

sunday is the only time that i usually have the "normal" breakfast, meaning that's the only time i get to eat at 7 or 8 am our time. i usually eat my breakfast around 9 or 10 pm... being assigned mostly at 12 midnight would make me go home 8:30 am, and yeah there were times that i was assigned 10 pm and get home 6:30... but still that's not the "normal" breakfast, if you know what i mean. and usually when i'm still up 7 am or 8 am my office mates and friends would drink after the shift, so it's rare that i'm home and cooking breakfast during the mornings...

so the past sunday, i had the chance again to just do that... after my friday shift, which was saturday morning my office mates and i had a FEW drinks, only a few since i was somewhat sick with coughs and colds, so i was able to go home around 2 pm. and from there i just slept through... woke up 10 pm, ate a little and went back to bed, woke up around 4 am, surfed a little then dozed a little until 6 am, and then had the chance to cook breakfast for my family...

i was thinking of cooking hotdogs, or bacon which is another favorite of mine, and some eggs but there were no hotdogs or bacon in the fridge (duh, i was the only one who's buying those bacons and hotdogs since my mom actually doesn't like meat. she would go for chicken or fish, because the doctor advised her, and she's somewhat health conscious..) so i looked at what's in stock and found a can of vienna sausages. i haven't had those in years (serious!) so i opened it and just had it microwaved with it's juices included. and there were some chopped tomatoes in the fridge so i got 'em and made them into scrambled eggs... well not scrambled and not omelletes though, it was in the middle of those 2. don't get it? just look at the pics: