A new blog, a new me! (hopefully haha)

it may be vague but it's what i pretty much cherish in my life.

disclaimer: don't assume. and the next set of lines may cause intrigues. pm for confirmation.
xxx

once you're there you keep wanting more
i wanted more
or so i thought

never thought this would come
seems like it's only of dreams unreachable
yet now there i was
i've had you

but only for a day
just for a moment
i just borrowed you from him
your time and your soul
i've embraced and drowned myself in

though it was unplanned
and though it is unrighteous
there i grabbed the chance
the only chance that i had

to be with you
just to hold you
just one time
before i let you go back to him

if only we could go further
but then again i wouldn't be able to
he's more fitting to you than i am

perhaps i'll just settle for the jeep
the next jeep
that will take me home
to a home that i'll be proud of

perhaps i'll just wait for the next cab
with the comfortable leather seats
and that one in tip top shape
to take me to where i should be

perhaps i'll wait for the next bus
or whatever vehicle would be next
for you are that car
comfortable and cool
yet i can only ride you once
in this avenue i am on.

your familiar voice
is now unheard
as i enter the gate that you've constantly guarded

your fur and scent
and what you do to your son
is nowhere in the air
and is now left undone

you left and never came back
though when you leave i always find you back

but now i just pray
that if ever that was your last day
i hope nothing tragic came to you
that they haven't hurt you

and if God did take you back
i just hope you went peacefully
without pain
i do hope that you went without pain...