A new blog, a new me! (hopefully haha)

*and again another outlet. this is just an outlet of what i feel so don't be cruel haha*

xxx

this isn't normal
what there is after what has happened
yeah, i haven't even experienced normal yet
so what would give me the right to say
that this not normal?

yes, i had you
but after that i don't feel you anymore
it happened once and would never be
and yes i should stop now
on looking forward to another ride

but then from time to time
though uncalled for keeps going back
remembering what happened wouldn't help
but my mind, my playful mind
dreams and goes back again.

my heart says the yearning has died
but my mind keeps on going, thinking
over and over on what is here now
yes, having nothing at all
is really becoming disturbing.

and now i feel dead.

*this isn't professional poetry or anything like that. just an outlet of what i feel*

xxx


and then i see you again
caught myself staring
at that one picture of you
innocently yet candidly eating

this emotion has been buried deep
but is forcing its way out again
screaming and longing to get out
break free from self preservation

oh how i wish i'd be there
and join you in your feast
and share the same spoon and cup
just to have that indirect kiss

for that spoon and cup is the only way
that i'd be the closest to your lips
for your lips was and is owned already
by someone even i don't see