A new blog, a new me! (hopefully haha)

whew! another Monday of being a homebody.... well, not exactly the homebody 'couch potato' lazy unproductive type... yeah, i have no work yet, but I am doing stuff that would at least generate money for someone who would be hired to do it: katulong mode!

actually, it's something that I've been doing while was still studying: i cook our daily meals, i wash the dishes, wash the clothes and hang them to dry, sweep the floor, mop once a week... I'm not complaining. I am somehow proud that I do these.. I feel that I still have a duty, worht, or purpose...yeah, purpose is the right word... I still have purpose, somehow... but the 'purpose' that I really want to be of is to generate and bring in money to the family.. I mean, we all study not just as a hobby or past time, but to eventually have a more dignified career..right?

When we were still kids, our challenges would be to tie our shoe laces right, brush our teeth everyday, and recieve stars from our kinder and preparatory teachers...(hehe) and we go to elementrary to prepare for a bigger challenge, which is highschool, and then we go to high school to prepare for college, and pursue college to prepare for an even bigger challenge/responsibility/call-it-whatever: to have a fulfilling work... fulfilling in terms of money and contentment and self-fulfillment and self-worth.

Right now, these are the things that I want to have.. self fulfillment and self worth. yeah, I know you can still achieve these even without a job (i still have that self-worth thing by doing chores) but to be able to support your family, and to be able to stand on your own feet, and purchase what you need and what you want with your own money - that's priceless. To know that you'd have the ability to be independent and that you can support your self is a big confidence booster.

Okay, so what is the 'not-so-secret' secret? Here it is...

Remember my post about missing two interviews at Edsa Shangri-La? Well I was again called for an interview a week after...and to make a long story short, I was chosen to be a trainee for being an Amenities Officer...well I'm not exactly sure if that's the job title..but the position is responsible for the replenishment of fruits, and fruits of the day, and upon the guests' request, the wine, chocolates, sparkling water, etc... it's like room service, but these are the things that you bring in.

So, among four of us who were present on the interview day, I was the one picked...I didn't ecpect it to turn out like that because they all have jobs and experience, while I have just graduated months ago...

Tey said that training would be for seven days, and after that if it turns out to be okay then you get hired. But the sad thing is, after just three days they said that the following day would be my day off of training, and during that day off, I was informed that they would just call me if they need me.... okay, at first I was still very optimistic that maybe that's their process: train, then train others, then train some more then pick among them; but since it's already two weeks now, I'm thinking that maybe that's just their way of saying that 'you aren't what we need'...ouch!

Haha, I really just feel soooooooo bad just thinking about it.... hah, just writing about it pains me...

(...okay, I'm becoming emotional again...)

I did what I can.. I made sure that I followed the standards.. in my first and second day, I refused to eat from what was stored! (okay, I ate a donut on the third day...but it wasn't in our section, probably it was from some department and was brought to ours, and I ate it because i was thinking that maybe they's think na di ako nakikisama or something..but those chocolates and fruits, I never ate any! kahit inalok nila ako!) I did my best, and I admit it was hard at first.. but on my last day, which was the third, I was already enjoying my job! and I even got tips!

I fulfilled the request for additional plates and cutleries.. I fulfilled the request for additional glasses.. I fulfilled the request for four shopping bags by some American guy... I informed the nearby employees that a room's lights wasn't working after a lady used her hairblower..

Okay, I had trouble at first on pushing heavy carts...but I didn't break any serving plate that I cleared on that third day..(that day, there were so many who checked out, that lots of plates, cutleries and F.O.D. plates had to be cleared floor by floor, and my cart was full of high-stacked plates...)

Honestly, I don't know the issue....is it because the uniform didn't suit me? (it was size Large, and I wear size medium..swear, while wearing the uniform I felt like I was back in high school wearing large or over-sized clothes....) is it because I wasn't as fast as the others? (i'm still starting and training, unlike my co-workers who've been doing it for months)

My guess is maybe they hired that one guy who looked better than me...taller, fairer, more blemish-free and more good-looking than I am...it's that guy that should have been with us during the interview, but was sent home because he wasn't wearing corporate attire (he was in shirt and jeans)...and I saw him on my second day of training, in nice corporate attire, in the agency coordinators' office, waiting for the interview, looking at me like he noticed I was one of those four that he should have been with during the interviews.

Or maybe I wasn't just fit for the job...oh well, I guess maybe it just wasn't meant for me... but seriously, I was already enjoying it.