A new blog, a new me! (hopefully haha)

'bed time'...or 'sleeping time' or 'time for bed' or whatever you'd call it....this is one point in your day wherein you have the deserved time for yourself. and as silence kicks in (not to some maybe) and you are lying there on the bed, when you are not yet too exhausted thoughts start to accumulate, and part of them is not jsut about future plans or goals but also of the past.

just today, an hour ago actually, i just needed to get sleep because I have an appointment for an interview at 9 in the morning.. but until now, and it's 3:30AM already, I still can't sleep fully...well i did have a very brief sleep, around 2AM i dozed off but after 30 minutes I still can't go back to sleep!!! so now i'm here in front of the computer, as I wait for myself to feel sleepy.

the hours that passed wherein I wasn't asleep were just used up lying there on the couch (i sometimes sleep on our couch, it's just so comfy and nice to sleep in) and just thinking of random stuff...a lot actually crossed my mind... people in highschool, jokes among friends, a classmate in college, someone I liked, what should have happened if i did this and that, and what I would tell my old self if I (the present me) were to go back in my high school days...

well, to share it with all of you, these would be what I would tell my old self:

1. don't touch your nose! dont squeeze them out! those zits, and those white thingiess even if it gets addictive..haha. squeezing out whiteheads turned my nose into what it is today... may baku-bako, uneven..

2. your hair! you have to know how to fix your hair! last years of grade-school i was referred to as toupe or wig. my hair was just messy. i didn't know how to groom myself then.

3. i would tell myself: go to a salon, a decent salon not a barbershop, and ask for a decent haircut. i always went to barbershops, and they always did not-so-nice-looking haircuts. or should i say it didn't fit me well...

4. have a better body! it's just that i was thinking, it would be better if my weight before would be something near what i have now, or even better. that way, i would have had more confidence.

5. throw away the glasses ASAP and reach for a pair of contact lenses ASAP. (double ASAP) glasses didn't look good on me.in my opinion.

6. just beat the hell out of those who tried to bully me. haha. but it's okay now, nobody's hurt..

7. have facials. my skin then wasn't good, and actually, until now, i just want to have a 'miracle operation' on it, if there ever is such a thing as a 'miracle operation', you know, just lie down for hours and then you'd have the skin of a model.haha

8. do a curse on myself that for everytime i'd self-pity myself, a magical hand would smack me on the face. hahaha... actually the better version would be the 'safeguard ghost' (you know commercials of safeguards, the mom being advised by her ghost self? something like that)

oh well, the others are pretty personal, the what i should have done to some people, yadi yada etc..

oh, IF YOU EVER READ THIS, SHARE SOME OF WHAT YOU'D TELL YOUR OLD SELF IN HIGHSCHOOL OF THINGS HE/SHE SHOULD DO..okay? just for fun : )

hmmm.... if you don't want to then it's okay i guess hehe : )

well, i'll just play some games till i feel sleepy...zzzzzzzzzzzzzz