A new blog, a new me! (hopefully haha)

Just 5 minutes ago, I caught myself staring at the pictures on my slide at my homepage here in Multiply. Literally. Lying on the bed while looking at the screen. I miss my old self.

I miss the times when all I worry about is getting above passing grades, and if I would be able to or should spend my allowance on drinking or just eating whatever. I miss the times when my classmates and I would head to Cubao or some other place after class and just drink. I miss the times when after classes I would head to Nyl's condo and just do whatever: drink coffee, drink beer, play Boggle, just chat.

Okay. Seems like every sentence on the previous paragraph has the word drink or drinking in it. Hahahaha.

I miss my old self who seems to be happy most of the time. I guess I'm not that happy right now. I don't know. Maybe I'm not enjoying work.

But I think what keeps me going is the people that I am with. They made my stay in the office pleasant and memorable. If ever I was assigned to a team with members who snobs you on your first day then maybe I wouldn't be working the next week.

But mind you: they're not my teammates anymore, but I'm still able to be with them on the floor or go wherever with them. I really did not want to leave the team but I had to. I was part of the last four people in the team that entered the floor, so four of us were transferred to other teams. But I'm still with them, and it touched me. If only I had a choice I wouldn't leave the team. I already like the team.

I just thought: yes, I might be missing my old self. But if I were to remain as my old self then perhaps I wouldn't be able to do what I can do now: pay for my own clothes, eat out with friends, and sit in a coffee shop.

REALLY. You would never be successful in convincing to stay in a coffee shop before. My friends know that. They even tease me that I am angry at the lady in the logo of Starbucks. It's just that when I was still in college, I'm thinking that it isn't practical to spend 140 pesos for a cup of coffee because it was pricey and there were lots of people in it. Before I am usually in a coffee shop just when my friends and I are waiting for someone else to arrive, or when I'm with my friends who I'm not able to see for months now and then decided to stay in a coffee shop to catch up on what's happening with each of us. Really, if I would decide where to stay: a bar or a coffee shop? I would choose to stay in a bar, because I don't feel good when I'm at coffee shops, because I feel like I'm paying for a pricey cup when I don't even earn my own money. But now, I feel more at ease (but not completely) to stay. And it's not because of the coffee but because of my friends, the people I am with. And also because I already have a job, hahaha.

Come to think of it, maybe I just miss the people that have been a part of my life. I miss being with them. I'm sorry, I'm just wide awake when everyone else is already asleep.